Friday, May 25, 2007
You knit me together in my mother's womb
I will praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made
Your works are wonderful
I know that full well
My frame was not hidden from You
when I was made in the secret place
When i was woven together in the depths of the earth
Your eyes saw my unformed body
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them to be."
a prayer that we pray for the little one in me :)
during this period, my thoughts tend to wonder. initally there are times when i worry and worry and worry. cos, there's so much to think about and to wonder. and also because there seems to be nothing that i can do.
i t's like i have absolutely no control over pregnancy ..... over the baby's formation. It is all in the Lord's hands.
Even though i have been a christian for so being years and through many situations, i have learnt to rely on the Lord and to trust in him, this pregnancy, really drove home the point.
And so, there is something that I can do. That is to pray and trust that He has taken care of everything and everything is indeed in His hands. He who has created the heaven and the earth. He who is omnipresent and almighty. He who desires the best for his children. He who sent His Son to die for us. He who loves unconditionally. Hallelujah praise the Lord.
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
First, i am very tired most of the time. To look for food and to think about what to eat wasn't my top priority.
Secondly, i don't have much appetite. I really don't feel like eating most of the time
Thirdly, i couldn't bear to cook! So there is only one option .... eat out! Which makes matters worse as i somehow didn't feel like eating those "char can tieng" food. and to go to a restaurant?? i am already so tired ..... it's difficult to make my way there .... hehehehe.
So for a few weeks, the one "cuisine" that i found "bearable" and "somewhat tasty" was "burgers, fries and pizza"!!!!
O wow, i ate Mac's (or other burger chains) a few times a week as well as pizza. Poor hubbie. Poor baby. Not much nutrition and high fat content ;-p. I call the baby "American Baby" .... hahahaha.
But thank God, that phase was over in a a matter of weeks.
and then i discovered, hmmmm, South East Asian food could do the trick so for another week or 2, my diet was hainanese roast chicken rice, nasi lemak, fried kway teow, fried hokkien mee, fried carrot cake and stuff ...... all @ South East Asian restaurants i could find. But of course, nothing compared to what we can get at home !! And so ..... for a while .... i wish i am back in singapore .....!!! eating all these wonderful food ...... hahahaha.
and in the between, one lovely fren invitation to her home for home cooked meal was my first "real" home cooked meal in weeks. Thanks JingYi.
I say "real" because i do cook at home for myself for lunch as i really cannot bear the thought of eating ......... but instant noodles, pasta with canned sauce, "rojak" sandwich and luncheon meat sandwich/fried rice ...... ain't really "real" home cooking ! ;-p hehehehe.
and of course, there's Sister Ollie's homebaked muffins and stuff and pork curry which she made and shared with me.
and finally this week, i have the energy to cook again!! The tiredness is now manageable and i can stand being in the kitchen without feeling nauseous @ the smell of cooking!! yeah!!! o wow, u can't imagine how happy i am to eat the food i cooked myself. and so, i hope i can keep up with it!
and for the record, i have not put on any weight yet since we discovered i am pregnant. let's see when the weight starts piling on.
Friday, May 11, 2007
sometimes it's becoz i feel a sense of discomfort in my lower back region so that makes sleeping uncomfortable. sometimes, it's like i'm having light cramps, so it's difficult to fall asleep. sometimes, it because i wake up in the middle nite to go to the toilet and cannot fall alseep after that. sometimes, there's no particular reason -- i simply cannot fall asleep.
sometimes i wonder is it because there's something bothering me? worrying me? that's why my mind cannot rest? subconsciously at least ..... cos i dun think there's any particular thing that's on my mind now that can cause sleepless nites ;-p
anywayz, mebbe this is one of things that is a result of the pregnancy. afterall, they say everyone has different reactions and symptoms rite?
okie, i will try and go sleepz now. nite nite.
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
this year, we went to the Hong Kong 7s again(30 Mar -1 Apr)! (this is our 3rd time.... or izit our 4th??) anywayz.... no matter ....
this year it was even more difficult getting tickets and until a few days before the event, we thot we will be missing this year's event ..... but thanks to hubbie ..... hehehehe ..... we made it!
this year fei had his fav "chicken" headgear with him ...... i think its kinda of cute ;)
anywayz ...... we didn't realise it initially, but baby also attended the rugby 7s with us :) didn't feel a thing then and enjoyed the weekend tremendously .... ... helped by the knowledge on Sunday morning that a new life is being formed :)
Monday, May 07, 2007
now into my 10th week and feeling much better :) thank God!
when we first found out that i could be pregnant, it was on the 31st march, when i did the home pregnancy test. and a trip to the gynae confirmed it.
as much as we planned this and looked forward to it, when it became a reality, it took us a few days to truly rejoice and be excited about it .... cos the first few days after the confirmation, there were juz so many things to think about and to pray about and stuff.....
and it seems so unreal ....... hahahaha.
and after that, came the discomfort and tiredness that literally knocked me out..... i will be like taking naps in the morning, in the afternoon and really don't feel like doing much ;-) good thing i am not working-- can't imagine having to trudge myself to the office and stuff.
of course, i still did my trading .... but honestly i pared down considerably, becoz some days i juz am not thinking straight.
anywayz, so my first ultrasound was on 3 Apr, my first visit to the gynae and there we saw the "sac" .... something so small yet going to cause such great discomfort later on....hehehehe.
due to my age(i belong to the high-risk pregnancy segment....based on age .... heehee), doc did ask us about the down's syndrome's test etc and whether we wanted to do it. at the back of my mind i know i didn't want to and so we prayed and commited it to the Lord. Praying and believing in the beautiful creation that we are going to receive in December 2007.
my second ultrasound was on 21 Apr, baby was abt 7 weeks + and it still looks like a "blob" but we can hear its heartbeat now! it's getting more "real" ....and my third visit to the gynae was 2 days ago on the 5th May and the baby is now taking shape and we can see it's hands and legs!!! so exciting. i felt very touched then.
amazing ! and it's only 2.5+ cm .....so tiny ......so precious .... and while we were all looking at it (doc, hubbie and myself), it's left hand suddenly moved. like it was waving at us ..... it's amazing .... like it knew that we were looking intently at it and it wanted to let us know that it's fine?! and it's legs too started to move. like the baby was in dancing. so utterly amazing.
continue to pray for God's protection over the baby. and also for ourselves that we follow in His ways in bringing up this child in the ways of the Lord.
also, thank God for sisters-in-christ whom i've got to know in hong kong who are so kind and helpful. To Pat, who introduced us the book "Praying for your Unborn Child" (by Francis and Judith McNutt) -- it's a really good prayer guide and offers insights to the development process and i would recommend it to all mums-to-be. and though she is in sydney and busy with her 2 children, family and ministry, continues to write and encourage me and pray for me.
To Ollie jie jie, who knew that i didn't feel like cooking during these last 2 months and therefore have been eating out most of the time, and took the trouble to bake muffins, bread, biscuits and share her home-cooked meals with me so that i get to eat some "healthy" stuff!!
To many others who pray with me and keep us in their prayer list.
Our parents are equally happy and excited for us. and i know that they are probably worried too since they are in singapore and we are here in hong kong. but Thank God for the love and support we have here in hong kong and the peace that God can grant when we choose to put our trust in Him.
i shall write another time...... byeeeee.